Today’s assignment is to conduct a Life Assessment. This exercise is difficult because it means I have to explore areas that I have ignored or tried to quick fix.
The categories are the following:
In each category I’m to list what I love about each and what I hate about each.
As I think about each category, I have a Hoarders marathon playing in the background. I can say with a certainty that I would much rather tackle the mess in some of these people houses than the exploration of my life. For example, the health section. I love that I take time (almost) daily to do something healthy for my body. But at the same time, I’m slowly killing myself each time I light up a cigarette.
Then the education section. I’m tickled pink that I reregistered in school for the fall (not to mention that I made the Dean’s List last semester!) but can’t fight that nagging inner critic who keeps hissing this should have been done years ago or the fear that once the semester rolls around I’ll do poorly in the three classes I’ve enrolled in.
Family is probably a whole other post in itself. Like any good mommy, I feel like I should have done more for the kids. Despite the fact that I know both to be normal, happy, loving children, I have that anxiety that somewhere, somehow I screwed something up. And that I hate. That I question my parenting when there’s really no need to.
It’s challenging to “Never give up. Never surrender.” I know that between this reset and the renewal of my faith, I’m on a path that’s preparing me to step into my greatness. Am I ready to accept what is rightfully mine?
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