Between crying jags, hugging the toilet, and a pounding headache, my mind and body was breaking down.
If it was The Mister, he would hunker down with some Cold-Ease, watch TV, and lounge harder than normal. Not to mention the whining he’d do about how sick he was. The kids would just worry my last nerves running me back and forth for juice, meds, soup and other comforts.
I just joined a wonderful new daily blog prompt and as I peruse the other bloggers posts, I get a little morose. I know mom’s bear the brunt of the family life, but it’s astounding how many women try to carve time just for themselves. From brewing morning coffee to the private act of pooping, we don’t even get THAT time.
Yesterday, I met up with The Teen’s troop leader who demanded that I come see her. Not for troop business, not to talk about The Teen, not to push cookies. But to come see her because I can’t continue to carry the world on my shoulders. She gestured to herself and said “What you see is because I had someone to help me along.”
We do so many things solo, and I know that most of my activities are solo activities. Not that I dislike other people, but because I never seem to find the time to just be alone, in my own head. And while that is cathartic, being in the company of like minded women can be uplifting, empowering, and just what I need to recharge my batteries.
I can’t count the times I have gone to a Girls’ Night Out and come home refreshed, wondering why I hadn’t done it sooner.
I know I said no resolutions for 2012, but I think I’m going to add this one:
The cape comes off.
I’m tired. I’m tired of going at it alone. I can’t and won’t pretend I can do it all on my own.
This was my 5 minute Stream of Consciousness Sunday post. It’s five minutes of your time and a brain dump. Want to try it? Here are the rules…
- Set a timer and write for 5 minutes.
- Write an intro to the post if you want but don’t edit the post. No proofreading or spellchecking. This is writing in the raw.
- Publish it somewhere. Anywhere. The back door to your blog if you want. But make it accessible.
- Add the Stream of Consciousness Sunday badge to your post.
- Link up your post below.
- Visit your fellow bloggers and show some love.